For an introvert, it means a lot. So, how do I really enjoy?
As silent being the ideal quirk of an introvert, I just love to chat. Especially with a complete stranger. Talking? Only few selective ones. Unlike many people(strangers) with whom you chat, I’m a kind of a person who will be the same when you talk to in-person. Okay, maybe a bit stolid, but it changes depending on you. Listening to music only caused me to think of the future or someone or it just felt really good and I daily listen to them a lot! Not that I want to, but I have to. Thinking about starting with podcasts now.
As much as I want to watch movies with my friends, watching movies in a theater has never be an intriguing thing for me. Of course, I will surely go for movies like Interstellar and Gravity. I prefer watching in my laptop, full HD, earphones plugged in and mainly, no one to intrude into my joy time. Horror, thrillers, romantic, Sci-fi, action, suspense…nahh, I watch every movie with the same enthusiasm. Movies, TV-Series, Anime and what not. I play video games with a lot of focus. Pretty good racer indeed. Online gaming? …not much. I’m also practicing violin. I try to enjoy it even though it’s hard.
I like to read stuff, like which helps me to think more, without any loon. In fact, I read a lot on the internet. I visit Quora almost daily, I read there a lot actually. I don’t like to be liked by everyone, just one or few are enough for me. As much as I want people to be on my side, I also want critics and haters. Stuff like psychology, facts, memes, thrillers, horror stories, morals, cars, some people…fascinate me. I think I enounce words in a pretty unnatural way. Obviously, I don’t speak much right. I hardly talk to anyone on daily basis. I hardly chat too, but when I connect with someone, it’s eternal joy and there comes my dinner time, chat end and I eat thinking about that chat. Hah, so much for eternity… Here’s something I never told anyone, I think I enjoy being hurt(❤💔). Yeah, you read it right. I enjoy it! Maybe because I like that feeling of lost into the thin air thinking about someone rather than my future. I think I should change it. I will.
Wohh! how could I forget, I love sharing stuff with people…and when I say people, I mean the special or close ones in my life, for example, someone who speaks my mind(perhaps heart if that’s what you call those stuff )so well that I don’t even need to speak out, someone who make me realize stuff which I never thought in that way, someone who crossed my life and turned it all over again…someone who deserves to know my stuff. There are very few selective someones in my life and I also share stuff with my not so close friends too, but those someones, they are the real deal, intimate, erotic, secrets, imperfections, weird, esoteric stuff what not? simply put-My Everything. That’s the greatest relish I can ever get in my life, not coitus, not writing awesome poems, not cuddling, not playing NFS n COD, not jerking off… talking and sharing stuff with my special ones…and if that special one talks/feels the same way I do…irrepressible joy. Hey, I am not saying that I don’t enjoy those “not” stuff…who doesn’t? (😏)
Yeah, you could say I am an introvert changing to extrovert, but there is always that person in me no matter what.
“I strongly believed in- people don’t change, until the right person crossed my life unexpectedly. Changing never felt this good”